Up and Down

Hmmmm, good? bad? Too many things happened. driving me crazy soon. It's too hard for me to burden it alone. Yea, kinda sicked of it. What's more? Perplexing.....:'(

My mind blends all the feeling together and become a awful "shitty juice". Yuck!

Happy....

Sad....

Jealousy....

Envious....

Annoyed....

Mad....

Angry....

Excited....

Curious.....

I know what i have done may not produce any effect. But i know i m not gonna give up! I try my best though i know it weakens me little by little. Someday i might just die without any signs. Kinda selfish to say that huh.... Yes, i won't break my promises. I just need some positive feedbacks. Nvm, u just too hurt to give any of it. I understand, i understand..... And i won't leave without u.....

Too bad i found that you don't even care about me. What so ever~ I still miss you.... I am stupid! Why? Damn, i dunno. Are you really that busy? Can u just simply drop me a reply? Never mind, look like i expect too much from you. Life is unfair. i know. I just know. You are like a fridge. Feel warm when i stand behind you but feel cold when i try to open u up. Argh! Can i know what is in your mind?

I am hungry and thirsty. Craving for hugs and love. But i know i am not deserved for that. I am alone somehow. I love myself. I guess it is enough but no, I want more. Maybe just a little....

Lastly, sorry for my insincerity. You are just a piece of pest's pet shit! keep on repeating the same thing. I dunno anything! I am a electric eel sometimes. I will zap u definitely if u try to make me mad! Move away before I kick your butt!!!

Hope it will change, asap! It's tiring..... hmph!