Exam was finally over! Whee~ But received a call just now, my ex-boss ask me to help her for a part time job. Ya, i agreed and it is gonna start soon, very soon...XD
Talking about ppl again for this post. Aha, the very first one ofcoz will be the one that i like the most. Let this fella be 1 ba. After i met 1, it really a disaster for me. It is like the movie 2012 and it is like a miracle. So unpredictable. When i try to reach my hand for it, the 1 just try to escape. When i know it will be no hope, the 1 comes and approaches me. WTF, stuck! totally stuck! My heart is full of contradictions! So hard for me to decide. Yet i decided to stay. I am not going like Jenifer Hudson~ >.<
The second one is rather cute. Just name this guy as 2. This 2 is just amazing. *hey, u hear me? u r amazing! Remember that~* 2 fell in love with someone too and he is facing the same things like me. Oww, we should just hug and cry together. Haha, i promised i won't leave this 2 alone and i am gonna make it happen. I want to make this 2 to be happy and regain the trust on the 2self. :) Don't make it complicated kay dear? It gonna be okay and a brighter future is waiting for you~
Nah, the third one is a just a small little chick. Chirping all the time in front of me. Haha, lol for that. Make me laugh always. Okay la, tell you that i love you too kay? :D Don't jealous anymore la. Hehehehehe......:)
Nightmare yesterday, really horrifying! Arghh! Never mind, it's not gonna change my mood today. 16 November, i am waiting for ur arrival. Rihanna LOUD album is going to be released!!! YAY!!! *Hopping so high till i knock the ceiling*
Actually i am hoping for one thing. Hope that my math can get full marks again. I really thirst for that. Hahaha~ For phy, erm, quite good! ;) The 3 remainings will be......er.......erm.......GOD bless me ba~ XD
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
No title pls~
Haha, exam week. 3 days jo, left only 2 more days~ WHEE!!!! Too bad i feel sorry to Mr Moay. Disappointed him. Saw his face just now, damn angry~ OMG T^T.....Maths still not bad~ *(actually quite good dee, at least can finish all x) Tomorrow will be chemistry, yeah~ favourite subject. Hehe~ just try my best.
Promise myself not easily beaten down my sadness.... Totally addicted to 2 things recently. First thing is Katy's song - Circe The Drain. OMG, it is absolutely superb and perfect!!! No flaws and any blemishes. Sing when i am doing revision recently. U can try too, when u met sumthing u dun like, shout out "and u r fucking CHOCKED!!!" Whee, happy again~ XD
Second thing would be smsing. Sms-ing for the whole day! Haha, me myself also can't believe it. Not for one day, but for a month jor~ Haha, at least 100 sms per day. LOL, my record would be 400 in one day. My fingers will pain if can't sms leh~ XD Happy that people said cannot get through a day without sms with me. EPIC! Hahahaha~
A bit down to see the person not being serious towards the test. Hope this person will try the best to finish every question la. God bless this guy. Found a new "toy" in school. Haha, toy? No, it's a homo sapien. A jelly homo sapien indeed. Like to squeeze him. XD like his smile so much.
Candy and sugar, make me sweet kay? I wanna be happy~ i believe i can. Love myself and people around me. Muacks~
Promise myself not easily beaten down my sadness.... Totally addicted to 2 things recently. First thing is Katy's song - Circe The Drain. OMG, it is absolutely superb and perfect!!! No flaws and any blemishes. Sing when i am doing revision recently. U can try too, when u met sumthing u dun like, shout out "and u r fucking CHOCKED!!!" Whee, happy again~ XD
Second thing would be smsing. Sms-ing for the whole day! Haha, me myself also can't believe it. Not for one day, but for a month jor~ Haha, at least 100 sms per day. LOL, my record would be 400 in one day. My fingers will pain if can't sms leh~ XD Happy that people said cannot get through a day without sms with me. EPIC! Hahahaha~
A bit down to see the person not being serious towards the test. Hope this person will try the best to finish every question la. God bless this guy. Found a new "toy" in school. Haha, toy? No, it's a homo sapien. A jelly homo sapien indeed. Like to squeeze him. XD like his smile so much.
Candy and sugar, make me sweet kay? I wanna be happy~ i believe i can. Love myself and people around me. Muacks~
Monday, October 18, 2010
It's been a week~
Ha! i blinked my eyes twice and one week passed already. So i blink my eyes twice again and the gruesome exam is just in front of me! Argh, not even open up my PA book. It is thick like a "Kamus Perdana", full of words and terms that i don't like it. But Whatever, i will give myself a smile and make it to be as simple as possible and pass the exam. ENOUGH! :D
Erm, it is a happy week though with some supportive friends around me. Thanks ya chi wing to sms with me to cheer me up~ Bibubibu....lol. That special kind of feeling is fading away and i am glad for that that i am proudly announced to be FREE of the clamp. Whee~~~
2 incidents that stunned me happened today. Hehehe, and i am dumb don't know how to react to them. First thing, erm basically i can't say a word about it. But thank you to make me happy and i am really happy for it just like i receive a happy meal~ XD Second thing is what chi wing told me. Kinda surprise to hear that because i used to feel it before. Hahaha, someone is jealous towards my closeness with wing. XD. Can you feel that? Lol it really makes my day to be so sunny~ :D
Erm, it is a happy week though with some supportive friends around me. Thanks ya chi wing to sms with me to cheer me up~ Bibubibu....lol. That special kind of feeling is fading away and i am glad for that that i am proudly announced to be FREE of the clamp. Whee~~~
2 incidents that stunned me happened today. Hehehe, and i am dumb don't know how to react to them. First thing, erm basically i can't say a word about it. But thank you to make me happy and i am really happy for it just like i receive a happy meal~ XD Second thing is what chi wing told me. Kinda surprise to hear that because i used to feel it before. Hahaha, someone is jealous towards my closeness with wing. XD. Can you feel that? Lol it really makes my day to be so sunny~ :D
Monday, October 11, 2010
I shut up because....
I know it is dumb to keep to myself. But i know at least it won't hurt you. I just dun wan to let you know. Feel so guilty about it. Not because i did something wrong. I guess u already knew what is happening. I don't hope to talk a single word about the person in front of you cause i know it hurts.
I hope to escape from you. Everytime i see you, i will remember what happened. Tons of loads will crush on me. I just dun wan to be the person like what they said, badmouth about them like a hypocrite......so i shut up cause i care.....
I shut up cause i still love you.....
I hope to escape from you. Everytime i see you, i will remember what happened. Tons of loads will crush on me. I just dun wan to be the person like what they said, badmouth about them like a hypocrite......so i shut up cause i care.....
I shut up cause i still love you.....
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Ei hello~
What i can say is you are totally a BITCH!!! Please move away~ I dun wanna see ur sickening degenerated face again!!!
I feel so damn funny when someone thought i bad mouth about her in front of the one that she loves. What!? so u scare to lose him? Cause what? Coz you are not who you are. U are just fake!!! FAKE MONSTER! I never badmouth about u kay, and i won't do that cause i know it is hurt. But u, u are no the same. You will do whatever to achieve triumph. Thought i scare of you? WTH, i will never tolerate with the person like you!
If you force me too hard, i will guarantee that you will never get the thing that you want!!!
I tell you again, i know you hate me. If you do, just tell me face to face. Don't sneak peek there with ur evil eyeballs and leave some fake "innocent" comments pretending that you dunno anything. I tell you twice now, that i know what you are thinking through your eyes and the way you talk. You dun have to hide from me. If you wan, just come and take it. But i know you won't own it long.........F off.......!!!
I feel so damn funny when someone thought i bad mouth about her in front of the one that she loves. What!? so u scare to lose him? Cause what? Coz you are not who you are. U are just fake!!! FAKE MONSTER! I never badmouth about u kay, and i won't do that cause i know it is hurt. But u, u are no the same. You will do whatever to achieve triumph. Thought i scare of you? WTH, i will never tolerate with the person like you!
If you force me too hard, i will guarantee that you will never get the thing that you want!!!
I tell you again, i know you hate me. If you do, just tell me face to face. Don't sneak peek there with ur evil eyeballs and leave some fake "innocent" comments pretending that you dunno anything. I tell you twice now, that i know what you are thinking through your eyes and the way you talk. You dun have to hide from me. If you wan, just come and take it. But i know you won't own it long.........F off.......!!!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Who care!!!
I have to accept the truth that 1 + 1 is not = to 2 anymore. NO!!! For me, math is just a dumb subject that makes people believe that 1 + 1 is still equal to 2.What!!!??? Nonsense, whatever, i just dun believe it anymore......
Since form 4 i have this doubt, what i have done is not what i will gain. Definitely~ Though teacher ask us to work hard to get what we want. What again? I dun believe it and i dun like it..... i tried so hard and yet i got nothing but ZERO.
I thought i could help, but it seems like resisting me. It just like helping someone with no legs to walk. Nearly impossible and it's tiring me. People will only demean me, say i am such a dumb to "help". Ya, it is sickening.
You told me that sometimes i don't understand you. Ya, i admit it and i am sorry about that. Maybe we have the different concept about life. But i hope what i have done is not wrong. My promise is my promise and i won't break it. I really don't know what you really want cause i feel that you don't trust me and you are not willing to tell me though. Whatever, i will stay and it is my promise. What else can i do for you? I really dunno.....
What i said is from my inner heart. I show my sincerity and yet i don't feel anyone return me with that. Everyone is asking me to understand their problems, but who really understand me? NO!!! I tell myself, never mind, i have learnt the hard way to overcome it. I used to be alone though i don't like it. This makes me degenerate again, send me back to the past. i got nobody to tell just like before. I said friend is the most important element in my life. Yes, it's true. I won't deny it. But now, i feel like being abandoned. You expect much from me, so do i. I just want you all to be happy, that's all!!! But i just can't feel it anymore. I am totally exhausted, wasting my energy and time. Yea, i am willing to sacrifice, but i can't see any hopes that can refresh me! I don't demand for more but being treated like a piece of glass is annoying.
I don't know what have i done and i don't know what i did wrongly. No one is gonna tell me........yea, no one. I will feel guilty, indeed very very guilty if my close friend is emo-ing. I feel like i m not doing my job well. I thought i can put the confidence into you, but now i have lost mine.
This reminds me about my form 3 life, you guys can demean me if this can make u happier. But i feel like i m a clown all the time. Look like, i need to accept the fact.
And now it makes me to feel that i m going to trust nobody but myself again..........
Since form 4 i have this doubt, what i have done is not what i will gain. Definitely~ Though teacher ask us to work hard to get what we want. What again? I dun believe it and i dun like it..... i tried so hard and yet i got nothing but ZERO.
I thought i could help, but it seems like resisting me. It just like helping someone with no legs to walk. Nearly impossible and it's tiring me. People will only demean me, say i am such a dumb to "help". Ya, it is sickening.
You told me that sometimes i don't understand you. Ya, i admit it and i am sorry about that. Maybe we have the different concept about life. But i hope what i have done is not wrong. My promise is my promise and i won't break it. I really don't know what you really want cause i feel that you don't trust me and you are not willing to tell me though. Whatever, i will stay and it is my promise. What else can i do for you? I really dunno.....
What i said is from my inner heart. I show my sincerity and yet i don't feel anyone return me with that. Everyone is asking me to understand their problems, but who really understand me? NO!!! I tell myself, never mind, i have learnt the hard way to overcome it. I used to be alone though i don't like it. This makes me degenerate again, send me back to the past. i got nobody to tell just like before. I said friend is the most important element in my life. Yes, it's true. I won't deny it. But now, i feel like being abandoned. You expect much from me, so do i. I just want you all to be happy, that's all!!! But i just can't feel it anymore. I am totally exhausted, wasting my energy and time. Yea, i am willing to sacrifice, but i can't see any hopes that can refresh me! I don't demand for more but being treated like a piece of glass is annoying.
I don't know what have i done and i don't know what i did wrongly. No one is gonna tell me........yea, no one. I will feel guilty, indeed very very guilty if my close friend is emo-ing. I feel like i m not doing my job well. I thought i can put the confidence into you, but now i have lost mine.
This reminds me about my form 3 life, you guys can demean me if this can make u happier. But i feel like i m a clown all the time. Look like, i need to accept the fact.
And now it makes me to feel that i m going to trust nobody but myself again..........
Monday, October 4, 2010
Betrayer......
Yes, without any doubt, it is another sad day.....
Actually, nothing happened that make me feel down, but myself.....
Learn nothing today in school except for those naturally attractive gossipy......shhhhhhh~
It's hot like an oven that made me even more frustrated. Argh, can it just snow for once. just once will be enough!
After school, nothing more but a plate of "kicapy" mee with whole bottle of pepper. *Aunty, pls put a bit enough la. Satu sudu sudah cukup! What!? that is for sugar, not pepper*
Ya, the real story starts here. It sounds a bit noob, you know, to complicated myself with my own thought! WTH~ I read a note just now. It was about 17 evidences to prove that you are in love with someone. At first, i thought, ok just have a look, nothing wrong. But after i read it, it haunted me. All the 17 proofs work on me! What!? I just don't believe, i thought i already set it down. But why? Ya, i can't cheat myself, i still miss it. It's been a week that i act "normally" with smiles and laughter on my face but they are just fake......
Evils may cry because nobody understand them. Angels can be evil cause everyone believes them to be angelic too much!!! Dunno what i am thinking today. The images still whirling in my mind all the time. Flash back again.....Every time when i look in to the eyes, i saw my pity face crying, sobbing morosely.....
Can i just leave without any signs. Sometimes, i feel like want to end it up just like "Monopoly" after someone broke. However, this is an endless game! I can't predict what will be the ending. Whatever~
What i am facing is like walking in a dark street with a magnesium ribbon and a match. To see the path clearly, i light the match to burn the magnesium ribbon. Yeah, it illuminates the surrounding and it is fantastic! feel like it lighted up my life~ so real but so unsecure. I don't want it to fade away like that! And when i am awake from that, i realize that i forgot to look for the path that i am suppose to do with the match and the magnesium ribbon. Argh, lost~ Am i too obsessed with the light and made myself lost? Should i just leave the match and the magnesium and find my own road in the darkness? Where am i now.......The betrayer of life......
Actually, nothing happened that make me feel down, but myself.....
Learn nothing today in school except for those naturally attractive gossipy......shhhhhhh~
It's hot like an oven that made me even more frustrated. Argh, can it just snow for once. just once will be enough!
After school, nothing more but a plate of "kicapy" mee with whole bottle of pepper. *Aunty, pls put a bit enough la. Satu sudu sudah cukup! What!? that is for sugar, not pepper*
Ya, the real story starts here. It sounds a bit noob, you know, to complicated myself with my own thought! WTH~ I read a note just now. It was about 17 evidences to prove that you are in love with someone. At first, i thought, ok just have a look, nothing wrong. But after i read it, it haunted me. All the 17 proofs work on me! What!? I just don't believe, i thought i already set it down. But why? Ya, i can't cheat myself, i still miss it. It's been a week that i act "normally" with smiles and laughter on my face but they are just fake......
Evils may cry because nobody understand them. Angels can be evil cause everyone believes them to be angelic too much!!! Dunno what i am thinking today. The images still whirling in my mind all the time. Flash back again.....Every time when i look in to the eyes, i saw my pity face crying, sobbing morosely.....
Can i just leave without any signs. Sometimes, i feel like want to end it up just like "Monopoly" after someone broke. However, this is an endless game! I can't predict what will be the ending. Whatever~
What i am facing is like walking in a dark street with a magnesium ribbon and a match. To see the path clearly, i light the match to burn the magnesium ribbon. Yeah, it illuminates the surrounding and it is fantastic! feel like it lighted up my life~ so real but so unsecure. I don't want it to fade away like that! And when i am awake from that, i realize that i forgot to look for the path that i am suppose to do with the match and the magnesium ribbon. Argh, lost~ Am i too obsessed with the light and made myself lost? Should i just leave the match and the magnesium and find my own road in the darkness? Where am i now.......The betrayer of life......
Sunday, October 3, 2010
What IF~
What if i never meet with :
1. wing - i will never know that there is still a guy out there who is crazier than
me! No blog without him....ha ty~
2. Warren - i will never know someone can laugh uglier than me~ *evil laugh* XD
3. JC - i will never know that he likes to dress like a girl~ Nice~
4. Quan - i will never know that a plant can TALK!!!
5. chu boon - i will never know that she will be in the same class with me for almost
11 years!
6. Jie jie - i will never know that there is a guy that can't sleep well without his
earphone
7. Gor Gor - i will never realise that my bro can a girl!!!
8. KW - i will never know that there is a lazy genius ass wearing glasses without the
glass sitting beside me....XD
9. ling - i will never know i am a dinosaur....=.=
10. Aerin - i will never know that someone loved me b4! sweet~
Random for my first post~
10 ppl that i must meet with in my life~ cause they r juz KEWL!!!
1. wing - i will never know that there is still a guy out there who is crazier than
me! No blog without him....ha ty~
2. Warren - i will never know someone can laugh uglier than me~ *evil laugh* XD
3. JC - i will never know that he likes to dress like a girl~ Nice~
4. Quan - i will never know that a plant can TALK!!!
5. chu boon - i will never know that she will be in the same class with me for almost
11 years!
6. Jie jie - i will never know that there is a guy that can't sleep well without his
earphone
7. Gor Gor - i will never realise that my bro can a girl!!!
8. KW - i will never know that there is a lazy genius ass wearing glasses without the
glass sitting beside me....XD
9. ling - i will never know i am a dinosaur....=.=
10. Aerin - i will never know that someone loved me b4! sweet~
Random for my first post~
10 ppl that i must meet with in my life~ cause they r juz KEWL!!!
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