昨天教师节，一早来到，相信很多人都看得见我的黑脸吧。其实，我当时心情真得很不好，因为昨晚我读了一篇关于星座的解说。他说得很准，准得让人心痛。但我不想承认那就是我，所以我逃避。当中又说到，水瓶座的人，其实很容易受伤，要是你上了他的心，他不会直接告诉你。他会坚强，在你面前装得毫不在乎，试着想要让你知道，你没有了我，你会更难过。他就是那么自我。其实，他没有什么信心，他不能没有大家的肯定。他爱伪装，但他一点也不假，也不爱玩心机。要是他吃醋，那就代表他真得很爱你。当时，上化学节的时候，就连老师也意识到了，走过来拍拍我的肩膀。我会记得的，记得老师其实也很关心学生的情绪。
但，化学节过后，我开始伪装，我开始说话，我开始大声地笑，大声地唱，没人知道，我的心还是在滴着血。我想我伪装的功夫更上一层楼了。不过说真的，今年的教师节，过得比往年更有意义，看得出老师们都很开心。但班上的事情却不曾减过。一次次的闹剧，一次次的误会，但不要紧，难关可以让我们成长。只有耿耿于怀的人，才会把脚步停留在自己最坚强的时刻，不肯面对现实。
今天，是学校的歌唱比赛，伟康和伊盈都进了决赛。评审说的对，只有有勇气的人，才敢站上这个舞台。伟康和伊盈真得很勇敢。我们支持你们！首先是伊盈，她唱的是“我是一只小小鸟”。说真的，我们真得很替她担心，这首歌不好唱。但，她做到了！没有瑕疵，对我来说，她唱得真得非常好，没有值得批评的地方。我们喊到声都沙了，拍到手也痛了，但始终我们还是不肯停止那给他的鼓励与欢呼。就像战士们打赢胜仗，人们为他们欢呼一样。场面真得被感动到了。伊盈真棒！
接下来是伟康，我们知道伟康作的准备并不足够，所以希望借助一些海报来给与他鼓励。他选唱了“新不了情”。也是一首疯狂歌曲。伟康生病了，声音也沙哑了，到了第二段，声音也开始没了。由于紧张，伟康走了拍子，我们很自然的陪他一起大声地唱着，把他拉回对的拍子里。我想伟康因该有被感动到了吧？哈哈~
结果出了，伊盈果然不负众望，赢得了冠军，我们还说她真得很鸟呢~ 伟康虽没得奖，但我知道，由我们的支持，她已经赢了。伟康加油，你真得很勇敢！
今天的歌唱比赛真得让我有很多感触，我真得太执著了。为什么我不能像对思玲他们那样来对待你们。我想，我应该要重新出发了。去寻找不一样的自己，寻找不一样的彩虹。我想我能！我能！
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Thursday, May 26, 2011
重返寂寞
今天运动会，场面很热闹，呼喊声四处起，但，我所能感受到的却只有寂寞。
最近，不只是我怎么了，还是你怎么了，你的眼神不再实在，感觉空空的。
我看了，心真得很寒。恐惧感油然而生。
今天，当完三级跳的裁判后，和你走到某个角落去休息。
一路上，我感觉自己很像一个傀儡，没有感觉，盲目的跟从着你。
坐下后，从你的眼神，我再也看不见以前的你，一个我以前认识的你。
还是，是我从没看过这样的你。或许，我真的没看过。
然而，你的眼神也不完全空虚，至少，在你眼中，我看见了她，我看见了落寞的自己，看见了不能坚强的自己。
昨天，我记得我曾告诉某人，要他对不可能的东西放手。我又有做到吗？我责备我自己。
你真得仿佛已经消失了，剩下的就只有躯壳。
我出卖了灵魂，却再也找不回那原本的我了。
我承认，或许，我把朋友真地看得太重了。我认定了一个朋友，我会义无反顾的负出。
但，慢慢的，我发觉，我的付出已经不值得了。我的付出，仿佛飞到了外太空去，不见踪影。
我的世界，你不在乎，你的世界，我被驱逐......
也许，在你面前，我会装得很坚强。只有在看不见你的时候，我才是最脆弱的。
也许，我身旁所留下来的位置，只有我的影子来填补......
最近，不只是我怎么了，还是你怎么了，你的眼神不再实在，感觉空空的。
我看了，心真得很寒。恐惧感油然而生。
今天，当完三级跳的裁判后，和你走到某个角落去休息。
一路上，我感觉自己很像一个傀儡，没有感觉，盲目的跟从着你。
坐下后，从你的眼神，我再也看不见以前的你，一个我以前认识的你。
还是，是我从没看过这样的你。或许，我真的没看过。
然而，你的眼神也不完全空虚，至少，在你眼中，我看见了她，我看见了落寞的自己，看见了不能坚强的自己。
昨天，我记得我曾告诉某人，要他对不可能的东西放手。我又有做到吗？我责备我自己。
你真得仿佛已经消失了，剩下的就只有躯壳。
我出卖了灵魂，却再也找不回那原本的我了。
我承认，或许，我把朋友真地看得太重了。我认定了一个朋友，我会义无反顾的负出。
但，慢慢的，我发觉，我的付出已经不值得了。我的付出，仿佛飞到了外太空去，不见踪影。
我的世界，你不在乎，你的世界，我被驱逐......
也许，在你面前，我会装得很坚强。只有在看不见你的时候，我才是最脆弱的。
也许，我身旁所留下来的位置，只有我的影子来填补......
Monday, May 23, 2011
我想不通
今天考试最后一天了，应该开心的，回家后发觉，和平常没什么两样~
考着 chemistry paper 1 时，完全不能专注。脑一直在想着别的事情。
妈妈应该是答应让我住到他家去，但，这不是我想要得吗？怎么还在这生闷气？
连我自己也想不通。真得很烦很烦！
到那住，还得重新适应环境，也要重新认识别人的家人，还得循规蹈矩。
这些不重要，重要的事，我害怕。
我害怕自己放不了手，不肯放手，又掉进陷阱里。
我想，可能我会每晚睡不着吧。
一个人，望着窗外的星空，孤独的，寂寞的，怀念着。
或许当时的距离就只有一尺那么短，但真正的距离却有一忆光年那么遥远。伸手，却摸空。
该怎么办？他是答应了，但我的心还是犹豫不决。
这会是我生命里的一个转折点吗？
无论如何，听天由命。我要撑下去~
考着 chemistry paper 1 时，完全不能专注。脑一直在想着别的事情。
妈妈应该是答应让我住到他家去，但，这不是我想要得吗？怎么还在这生闷气？
连我自己也想不通。真得很烦很烦！
到那住，还得重新适应环境，也要重新认识别人的家人，还得循规蹈矩。
这些不重要，重要的事，我害怕。
我害怕自己放不了手，不肯放手，又掉进陷阱里。
我想，可能我会每晚睡不着吧。
一个人，望着窗外的星空，孤独的，寂寞的，怀念着。
或许当时的距离就只有一尺那么短，但真正的距离却有一忆光年那么遥远。伸手，却摸空。
该怎么办？他是答应了，但我的心还是犹豫不决。
这会是我生命里的一个转折点吗？
无论如何，听天由命。我要撑下去~
Saturday, May 21, 2011
你听寂寞在唱歌
你听见了吗？那孤单呼唤你的声音。
那，连绵不断，
时而大声时而小声，
带走快乐的歌声。
我听见了。
请别靠近我。
不要再次让我感受到你的温暖，
让再一次义无反顾的醉倒，
让我再一次受伤，
让我有机会自残。
或许，我该穿上一件隔热的外套吧。
把所有的温暖，收藏在里面。
把冰冷的脸孔，留给外界。
我爱孤单，但我不爱寂寞。
谁爱寂寞呢？只有寂寞自己。
追求完美？完美世界？我想不可能吧。
其实人有什么资格谈人权。
我们根本就不应该出现在这个星球上。
我们破坏了他的美，他的原始。
对于我来说，人类只是寄居在这颗星球上，跟奴婢没什么分别。
只是人类野了，攻击性变强了。在主人不太管的情况下，把自己当成了主人。
想要主宰这个家，这个世界。
主人开始给与警告了，海啸，地震，台风，冰刨等等。
是时候了，是时候该退让了。
做回一个寄居者应该受的本分，
做回人类本来就应该做的东西，
是我傻，还是我天真呢？我的同类，你在哪？
那，连绵不断，
时而大声时而小声，
带走快乐的歌声。
我听见了。
请别靠近我。
不要再次让我感受到你的温暖，
让再一次义无反顾的醉倒，
让我再一次受伤，
让我有机会自残。
或许，我该穿上一件隔热的外套吧。
把所有的温暖，收藏在里面。
把冰冷的脸孔，留给外界。
我爱孤单，但我不爱寂寞。
谁爱寂寞呢？只有寂寞自己。
追求完美？完美世界？我想不可能吧。
其实人有什么资格谈人权。
我们根本就不应该出现在这个星球上。
我们破坏了他的美，他的原始。
对于我来说，人类只是寄居在这颗星球上，跟奴婢没什么分别。
只是人类野了，攻击性变强了。在主人不太管的情况下，把自己当成了主人。
想要主宰这个家，这个世界。
主人开始给与警告了，海啸，地震，台风，冰刨等等。
是时候了，是时候该退让了。
做回一个寄居者应该受的本分，
做回人类本来就应该做的东西，
是我傻，还是我天真呢？我的同类，你在哪？
Thursday, May 19, 2011
真得很感动一下下~
这几天开始考试了，感觉很郁闷。
没心情考试，完全没有。
还好，物理还考得没那么差，不然会死得很难看。
八月，屋子要重建了。在烦着要在哪里落脚。
可是，让我感动的是，竟然有朋友已经开始替我找地方了，替我担心了。
哇！真得很感动咯。就提一下他们吧，他们是 Grace, 家伟和坚业。
那种感觉实在是，窝心，感动，温暖。
哈哈，通常在这种情况下，才能看得出，谁才是真正关心你的那一位。:)
但，住哪里都好，只要不影响我的学业就好了。
突然有种莫名的忧伤，眼神放空，封闭心门，容不下任何人。
唉~
你那两人的纷争，我希望谁也别管。
插手，只会让事情变得更糟。
谁有真得能把人际关系处理的完美无瑕呢？
我想应该没有吧.
没心情考试，完全没有。
还好，物理还考得没那么差，不然会死得很难看。
八月，屋子要重建了。在烦着要在哪里落脚。
可是，让我感动的是，竟然有朋友已经开始替我找地方了，替我担心了。
哇！真得很感动咯。就提一下他们吧，他们是 Grace, 家伟和坚业。
那种感觉实在是，窝心，感动，温暖。
哈哈，通常在这种情况下，才能看得出，谁才是真正关心你的那一位。:)
但，住哪里都好，只要不影响我的学业就好了。
突然有种莫名的忧伤，眼神放空，封闭心门，容不下任何人。
唉~
你那两人的纷争，我希望谁也别管。
插手，只会让事情变得更糟。
谁有真得能把人际关系处理的完美无瑕呢？
我想应该没有吧.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Movie Day~
Tomorrow i will be having my Physics test. Hell yes and today i am still lazy-ing around.
Today, i watched 2 movies! Yeah, quite nice though. Prince of Persia and Final Destination 4.
What i like about this 2 movies is they taught me to be thankful for having a life and can stay alive until this long. About Prince of Persia, it's mainly about people fighting to get the sand that can bring people back to the past. See! Time is precious! People regret of what they did and they are trying to change it! But it's just fiction. Nothing can be changed. (Btw, the Princess Tamina is quite gorgeous! xD)
For Final Destination 4, what i would like to say is BLOODY but i like it. Hehe, you know that it is so stress to keep absorbing things into your mind just like a sponge. So, be cruel and hardened up your heart to watch this kind of bloody and juicy movies to release all your tension. LOL! Kinda weird! However, this movie told me that we are surrounded by death. Every moment, we can just leave this world like that. No signs, no premonitions, no nothing. We don't know anything about our deaths. It maybe happen tomorrow or later when we sleep. Chock ourselves up? Maybe~ Hence, just try to be a human and be a real human!
What is so freaking awesome about this life is we can feel pain. We suffer. We can be happy, insane, stupid or whatever. Without all these, we are just robots! So what if something pains us, it's actually nothing. Everyone feels pain. Some people demand that they just want to be happy, but what if they could really stay happy for a long long period? Once they get hurt, they will feel triple the pain. It screws them up and they might just kill themselves. Who knows? Be balance! Sad then happy, fail then success! Being a perfectionist, i always hope everything to be as perfect as my thought. Things just go wrong always. I guess my hands are too small to change this kind of things.
Nah! It's fucking perfect already! So lazy to take care of this anymore. Now, when i see you, i will smile. Smile with tears running in my veins. I do miss you but i don't feel like missing you. But why am i still looking for you? Your comments, your posts, your videos, your messages, your photos and your shadow. I still love you, is that wrong? I guess we are just far far apart. It's like oil and water that will form 2 layers all the time. What is in your mind? May i know that? :(
Today, i watched 2 movies! Yeah, quite nice though. Prince of Persia and Final Destination 4.
What i like about this 2 movies is they taught me to be thankful for having a life and can stay alive until this long. About Prince of Persia, it's mainly about people fighting to get the sand that can bring people back to the past. See! Time is precious! People regret of what they did and they are trying to change it! But it's just fiction. Nothing can be changed. (Btw, the Princess Tamina is quite gorgeous! xD)
For Final Destination 4, what i would like to say is BLOODY but i like it. Hehe, you know that it is so stress to keep absorbing things into your mind just like a sponge. So, be cruel and hardened up your heart to watch this kind of bloody and juicy movies to release all your tension. LOL! Kinda weird! However, this movie told me that we are surrounded by death. Every moment, we can just leave this world like that. No signs, no premonitions, no nothing. We don't know anything about our deaths. It maybe happen tomorrow or later when we sleep. Chock ourselves up? Maybe~ Hence, just try to be a human and be a real human!
What is so freaking awesome about this life is we can feel pain. We suffer. We can be happy, insane, stupid or whatever. Without all these, we are just robots! So what if something pains us, it's actually nothing. Everyone feels pain. Some people demand that they just want to be happy, but what if they could really stay happy for a long long period? Once they get hurt, they will feel triple the pain. It screws them up and they might just kill themselves. Who knows? Be balance! Sad then happy, fail then success! Being a perfectionist, i always hope everything to be as perfect as my thought. Things just go wrong always. I guess my hands are too small to change this kind of things.
Nah! It's fucking perfect already! So lazy to take care of this anymore. Now, when i see you, i will smile. Smile with tears running in my veins. I do miss you but i don't feel like missing you. But why am i still looking for you? Your comments, your posts, your videos, your messages, your photos and your shadow. I still love you, is that wrong? I guess we are just far far apart. It's like oil and water that will form 2 layers all the time. What is in your mind? May i know that? :(
Monday, May 16, 2011
我还会痛~
看了一个短剧，不由自主地哭了起来。
原以为开始麻痹了，却还是隐隐的作痛了。
触碰不了的伤口，因该让它留着吗？
以为避开了，不想了，伪装了，就可以笑着活下去。
但为什么，一次次突然地想起你，一次次的偷偷哭泣。为什么？
是不是谁 给的不够 还是谁放得太多？
我应该要忘记了，
但，装了两个星期，
你的记忆，已经深深烙印在我心中了，永远磨灭不了。
有人问我，如果给我多一次机会，我会不会选择再遇上你？
我的答案是：会，一定会！就算让我再痛也无所谓。只是这一次，我会选择不告诉你。默默地在你的身后看着你的背影就好了。
我曾经告诉自己不要哭，不是不值得，而是，哭了也没用，我手上已经不再拥有任何筹码。就连等你的资格也没有，我还想挽回什么。
但是，听了一句话后，被那句话打动了。深深的刺在我的伤口上，“我爱你，有错吗？”
我们的爱 犯了什么错？
我们的爱？或许，只是我一个人的一厢情愿吧。
不要再说，你会不会在乎。我只是知道，我还在乎。
曾经傻傻以为，你会是对的人，我寻寻觅觅了好久的那一个人。我感觉到了，对的人，却也是最错的那一个人。
我不会忘记，我是哭着写着一篇的，
这已经不再是伤心或是死心了，它已经升华到了另一个境界，变成一种难以磨灭的痛，痛到我已经麻木了，却还是感觉到痛．
我爱你，真的有错吗？
或许你根本不会在意，我只想听听你内心的答案．告诉我，是我笨了吗？我傻够了吗？
这世界上，根本没有奇迹，只有等待，只有要求，只有伪装，只有怀念，只有愿意，只有痛心，只有死心，只有我不懂．．．．．
一个人的脚印，深深地印在沙滩上，却永远烙不上你的心，被海浪一点一点的冲淡，像我给你的回忆，一点一点的忘记。
真的只有眼泪知道．．．．．．
原以为开始麻痹了，却还是隐隐的作痛了。
触碰不了的伤口，因该让它留着吗？
以为避开了，不想了，伪装了，就可以笑着活下去。
但为什么，一次次突然地想起你，一次次的偷偷哭泣。为什么？
是不是谁 给的不够 还是谁放得太多？
我应该要忘记了，
但，装了两个星期，
你的记忆，已经深深烙印在我心中了，永远磨灭不了。
有人问我，如果给我多一次机会，我会不会选择再遇上你？
我的答案是：会，一定会！就算让我再痛也无所谓。只是这一次，我会选择不告诉你。默默地在你的身后看着你的背影就好了。
我曾经告诉自己不要哭，不是不值得，而是，哭了也没用，我手上已经不再拥有任何筹码。就连等你的资格也没有，我还想挽回什么。
但是，听了一句话后，被那句话打动了。深深的刺在我的伤口上，“我爱你，有错吗？”
我们的爱 犯了什么错？
我们的爱？或许，只是我一个人的一厢情愿吧。
不要再说，你会不会在乎。我只是知道，我还在乎。
曾经傻傻以为，你会是对的人，我寻寻觅觅了好久的那一个人。我感觉到了，对的人，却也是最错的那一个人。
我不会忘记，我是哭着写着一篇的，
这已经不再是伤心或是死心了，它已经升华到了另一个境界，变成一种难以磨灭的痛，痛到我已经麻木了，却还是感觉到痛．
我爱你，真的有错吗？
或许你根本不会在意，我只想听听你内心的答案．告诉我，是我笨了吗？我傻够了吗？
这世界上，根本没有奇迹，只有等待，只有要求，只有伪装，只有怀念，只有愿意，只有痛心，只有死心，只有我不懂．．．．．
一个人的脚印，深深地印在沙滩上，却永远烙不上你的心，被海浪一点一点的冲淡，像我给你的回忆，一点一点的忘记。
真的只有眼泪知道．．．．．．
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Excitement
Hmmm....Yesterday, i went to Malacca with family. It's not the first time i have been there, but this time it is just different. It's like a backpacking for me where i can go around wherever i like.
Around 7.30 in the morning we started our journey. Arrived there around 10 in the morning. Dad went to work while mum and i walked around the Bukit Cina there. Hmm....quite a lot of souvenirs sold there. But the weather is quite warm there, so we decided to walk to Dataran Pahlawan there. LOL! We managed to get there without a map! While we were on our way, I saw some policemen riding horses. Quite a nice scene! I mean the horse but not the person above it. I just like animals.
Next, we went for lunch together with bro. He recommended us a restaurant called Nadeje Cafe. It is just located above the Dataran Pahlawan there. Hey, i saw people queuing up, waiting to be served. Luckily, we didn't wait long, about 10 minutes. What is so special about this cafe is it's cake! Milk creme layer cake. It tastes absolutely fabulous! Melt instantly in your mouth! We just ordered one sliced and we already addicted to it! Mocha flavour~ YummmmmmyYYYY!!!
After that, we went to the beach. We heard that there is a stall selling Coconut milk shake and it is very popular. So we went to Klebang and WTH, long queue again! We waited for a bout half an hour to get our milk shake. It tastes good. Really really good! Refreshing! With ice cream, coconut flesh and coconut water, it is amazing and amusing! Worth for us to wait. xD
Nice right? At night, we went for satay celup as our dinner. We heard that it is very very nice! Can't resist my mouth from trying good food. Hahaha! The Capitol Satay shop is around the Dataran Pahlawan in the city. When we reached there. Our jaws dropped off because there was already a super long queue! AGAIN! We waited for 1 hour at least standing beside the road. Nearly lost our patience. Finally, we got our place. I dun feel like liking it because of it's hygiene problem. Not very interested with steamboat-liked meal. After we tried, haiz....not that good also. I personally think that it is just ordinary. Not really that special for me. It was quite cheap but no i dun like it. xD
After sending bro back to his hostel. We went home. Quite interesting for me. I like Malacca. It is one of the city that i like the most in Malaysia beside Georgetown. Lalala, if possible, everyone should go there and have a backpacking tour! Bhai~~~
Around 7.30 in the morning we started our journey. Arrived there around 10 in the morning. Dad went to work while mum and i walked around the Bukit Cina there. Hmm....quite a lot of souvenirs sold there. But the weather is quite warm there, so we decided to walk to Dataran Pahlawan there. LOL! We managed to get there without a map! While we were on our way, I saw some policemen riding horses. Quite a nice scene! I mean the horse but not the person above it. I just like animals.
Next, we went shopping in Dataran Pahlawan. I like the complex a lot cause it is more convenient and more user-friendly compared to KL shopping complexes. The temperature is just at the right point. Not too cold and not too warm though. Saw quite a lot of cute things! ANGRY BIRDS! Meanwhile, i bought a new pants! And we got a free anc coll recycle bag! Love it so so so much!
Next, we went for lunch together with bro. He recommended us a restaurant called Nadeje Cafe. It is just located above the Dataran Pahlawan there. Hey, i saw people queuing up, waiting to be served. Luckily, we didn't wait long, about 10 minutes. What is so special about this cafe is it's cake! Milk creme layer cake. It tastes absolutely fabulous! Melt instantly in your mouth! We just ordered one sliced and we already addicted to it! Mocha flavour~ YummmmmmyYYYY!!!
After that, we went to the beach. We heard that there is a stall selling Coconut milk shake and it is very popular. So we went to Klebang and WTH, long queue again! We waited for a bout half an hour to get our milk shake. It tastes good. Really really good! Refreshing! With ice cream, coconut flesh and coconut water, it is amazing and amusing! Worth for us to wait. xD
Nice right? At night, we went for satay celup as our dinner. We heard that it is very very nice! Can't resist my mouth from trying good food. Hahaha! The Capitol Satay shop is around the Dataran Pahlawan in the city. When we reached there. Our jaws dropped off because there was already a super long queue! AGAIN! We waited for 1 hour at least standing beside the road. Nearly lost our patience. Finally, we got our place. I dun feel like liking it because of it's hygiene problem. Not very interested with steamboat-liked meal. After we tried, haiz....not that good also. I personally think that it is just ordinary. Not really that special for me. It was quite cheap but no i dun like it. xD
After sending bro back to his hostel. We went home. Quite interesting for me. I like Malacca. It is one of the city that i like the most in Malaysia beside Georgetown. Lalala, if possible, everyone should go there and have a backpacking tour! Bhai~~~
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Random~
Yesterday was mum birthday. Made a card for her and i hid in the fridge in the morning before i went to school. Hmmm....hope she really like it though it is not that super cute or nice. But when i was home, i saw her smiling. That's more than enough for me. :)
Last night, i dreamed a weird thing again. I dreamed that i was fighting with skw. It sounds funny but it made me feel bad. Really really bad indeed. We fought because i think he only cares the one he likes only and we are like no more friends. The scene is still in my mind. Everything seems so real to me. I hope that it wont really happen. Please don't let it happen please. I don't really care anymore but why do i have this kind of dream? Do i still care about that?
Discussing about vaccine during PA tuition class today. Suddenly it gave me an idea. If possible, we can create a vaccine to be injected into human bodies. If the mosquitoes sting us, the vaccine will turn the mosquitoes into a chicken! Yes, a CHICKEN! Or just anything will do. Then we will have enough food to eat! Nah! Just some stupid imagination. But what if there were a lot of mosquitoes stinging us at night? LOL, there will be a lot of chickens running around you at the night time! Lalalala, it's not a good idea though. :(
Exam next week. I start getting a little bit nervous now. No! very nervous but i don't feel like doing revision also. Why? I also don't know. Anyway, i hope everyone can do their best for this exam. Add oil add oil!
Last night, i dreamed a weird thing again. I dreamed that i was fighting with skw. It sounds funny but it made me feel bad. Really really bad indeed. We fought because i think he only cares the one he likes only and we are like no more friends. The scene is still in my mind. Everything seems so real to me. I hope that it wont really happen. Please don't let it happen please. I don't really care anymore but why do i have this kind of dream? Do i still care about that?
Discussing about vaccine during PA tuition class today. Suddenly it gave me an idea. If possible, we can create a vaccine to be injected into human bodies. If the mosquitoes sting us, the vaccine will turn the mosquitoes into a chicken! Yes, a CHICKEN! Or just anything will do. Then we will have enough food to eat! Nah! Just some stupid imagination. But what if there were a lot of mosquitoes stinging us at night? LOL, there will be a lot of chickens running around you at the night time! Lalalala, it's not a good idea though. :(
Exam next week. I start getting a little bit nervous now. No! very nervous but i don't feel like doing revision also. Why? I also don't know. Anyway, i hope everyone can do their best for this exam. Add oil add oil!
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Recalling from the deepest part of my heart.
Recalling all those memories these 2 days.
For me, all those memories are sweet. Really really appreciable.
But, when i am recalling my memories, it means that i am sad. Seek for happiness and trying to escape from the fact. It's always like that. I mean me myself. I am a freak with full of contradiction in myself. When i smile, it doesn't really mean that i am happy at that moment. Hmmm....pretending? Maybe, but it just set in my DNA. It's me!
I miss those days where we can
Talk about everything with no hesitation
Dun speak even one word but we know what the other want to say
Smile and look at each other :)
Laugh our asses out
Care about each others
Having fun and messing around together.....
But in fact, those are just memories. Nobody can send me back to that moment again not even once. No....never.....What i can only do is to continue my life and i hope i am able to seek for the true happiness. Wish that someone may appear in my life and lighten my senses again. Though now it is the time for me to heal my wound, but i do hope this person can turn out faster. It can be a group of people also. I don't mind as long as they can drive me to another level of enjoying my life.
I just read a song lyrics. It's Beyonce new song. The lyrics is totally sad - "I told you how you hurt me/ I’m crying and deserted but you don’t care/ Nobody told me this is love/ You’re immune to all my pain/ This is love but that’s okay… But I care/ I know you don’t care too much/ But I still care." But i just like it. :)
My class, i really miss you! My real class! I dun care if any of opposition occurs or any misunderstanding that breaks our relationship, i still have a profound love toward it. My 6SA, please don't ever let it falls. I hope everyone can cherish the moment while we are still together. Guys, we have only 8 months left. Don't make me cry again. OMG! LOL
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
好想，好想
真得很想在这里能够留下你的足迹，留下曾经发生过的回忆。无论是开心，或是不开心，都好想一一记下，让以后的我，就算是一个人的我，也能够细细品尝那无穷回味的记忆。
或许在这个断点，我学会不再回头，也不再拉扯，
但往往，人就是改不了依念，
越后来，感觉越强烈，
很想反方向跑向起点，
就算重新再来，重新再痛，
也能带着微笑，一点也不妥协。
可惜，可是，可悲，
人生或许就像大便，
不可能永远把某样东西留在身边，
就让它走吧。
慢慢发觉，原来自己讲话很没有点。
往往人家看了或听了，还是一头雾水。
可能是自我保护吧，不习惯让别人看透自己。
但是，有时，直肠直肚应该也不错吧。
我不爱以语言攻击人家，感觉真得很伤，
说真的，谁想要被别人伤害呢？
看来，说话的确是门学问，
我是该好好学学了。
自己真得很矛盾。
一分钟以前，想着要杀人，
一分钟后，还是原谅他吧。
我就是这样，不是说心软吧。
只是，我真得很矛盾，感觉，算了吧，算了吧。。。。。。
可能是因为这样，心情真得会大起大落。
相信许多人都怕了吧。
说真的，连自己都不太能了解自己，又有什么资格要别人去了解自己呢？
你看，原以为只想写两句的，却写了一大篇大便出来，邓景文，你在吗？o.O
或许在这个断点，我学会不再回头，也不再拉扯，
但往往，人就是改不了依念，
越后来，感觉越强烈，
很想反方向跑向起点，
就算重新再来，重新再痛，
也能带着微笑，一点也不妥协。
可惜，可是，可悲，
人生或许就像大便，
不可能永远把某样东西留在身边，
就让它走吧。
慢慢发觉，原来自己讲话很没有点。
往往人家看了或听了，还是一头雾水。
可能是自我保护吧，不习惯让别人看透自己。
但是，有时，直肠直肚应该也不错吧。
我不爱以语言攻击人家，感觉真得很伤，
说真的，谁想要被别人伤害呢？
看来，说话的确是门学问，
我是该好好学学了。
自己真得很矛盾。
一分钟以前，想着要杀人，
一分钟后，还是原谅他吧。
我就是这样，不是说心软吧。
只是，我真得很矛盾，感觉，算了吧，算了吧。。。。。。
可能是因为这样，心情真得会大起大落。
相信许多人都怕了吧。
说真的，连自己都不太能了解自己，又有什么资格要别人去了解自己呢？
你看，原以为只想写两句的，却写了一大篇大便出来，邓景文，你在吗？o.O
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Stalker!
I can't imagine that someone is stalking my blog! OMG! That's ridiculous! Simply write this to show that how shock i am! jasmine yeo! Be aware of this girl! hahahahahaha.....
She is a super stalker and will laugh at you after reading your blog post! OMG, i m damn pai seh now! ARGHHH!!!!! Mwahahahahahahaha~
She is a super stalker and will laugh at you after reading your blog post! OMG, i m damn pai seh now! ARGHHH!!!!! Mwahahahahahahaha~
LOL!
OMG! I can't believe i have been abandoning this site for half a year! And now I am back! Hahahaha....
Recently, i mean this half a year, there were GOD DAMN LOT of troubles and changes! I fought with Wing and now friends again X) Hmmm.....honestly, i was mad at that time i guess. Really really mad i mean. I know i did it wrongly but i know i will never able to heal the wound again. Just hope that i can stay with him and make his emoness away even just for a while. Let just hope i will remain sober all the time and no more mistakes pls! >.<
Life is full of changes! I went up to the top of the world and now I am at the bottom of the hell. I put in too much hope i guess. I believe everyone will be like me as well. Although they know that something is totally impossible to them, they will still pay all out maybe just to get a little bit of reward or maybe none at all. Life is cruel, we have to admit it. And i am wondering what the hell are all these natural rules. Who made them? Why do we need to follow all of these? I really fall deep with this person and now i think i just have to let go. I think i am almost done. Just be dudes would be enough for me. Wish this person all the best and have a happy life...:)
Recontact with so many people and i feel great about it! These guys lighten up my life! Great! Fantastic! HOU AH!!! I don't feel lonely anymore and i have learnt so much after these few months. Just hope that i can do better after this. Strive for the best TENG JIN WEN!
Recently, i mean this half a year, there were GOD DAMN LOT of troubles and changes! I fought with Wing and now friends again X) Hmmm.....honestly, i was mad at that time i guess. Really really mad i mean. I know i did it wrongly but i know i will never able to heal the wound again. Just hope that i can stay with him and make his emoness away even just for a while. Let just hope i will remain sober all the time and no more mistakes pls! >.<
Life is full of changes! I went up to the top of the world and now I am at the bottom of the hell. I put in too much hope i guess. I believe everyone will be like me as well. Although they know that something is totally impossible to them, they will still pay all out maybe just to get a little bit of reward or maybe none at all. Life is cruel, we have to admit it. And i am wondering what the hell are all these natural rules. Who made them? Why do we need to follow all of these? I really fall deep with this person and now i think i just have to let go. I think i am almost done. Just be dudes would be enough for me. Wish this person all the best and have a happy life...:)
Recontact with so many people and i feel great about it! These guys lighten up my life! Great! Fantastic! HOU AH!!! I don't feel lonely anymore and i have learnt so much after these few months. Just hope that i can do better after this. Strive for the best TENG JIN WEN!
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