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... What does this really mean? What I said is meaningless? You don't wan to talk to me anymore? Is it really that complicated to describe in words? Maybe i am sensitive. I feel rejected. I feel being abandoned. And seriously, u left me speechless also.

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Do u get what i mean? I can't. :(

Up and Down

Hmmmm, good? bad? Too many things happened. driving me crazy soon. It's too hard for me to burden it alone. Yea, kinda sicked of it. What's more? Perplexing.....:'(

My mind blends all the feeling together and become a awful "shitty juice". Yuck!

Happy....

Sad....

Jealousy....

Envious....

Annoyed....

Mad....

Angry....

Excited....

Curious.....

I know what i have done may not produce any effect. But i know i m not gonna give up! I try my best though i know it weakens me little by little. Someday i might just die without any signs. Kinda selfish to say that huh.... Yes, i won't break my promises. I just need some positive feedbacks. Nvm, u just too hurt to give any of it. I understand, i understand..... And i won't leave without u.....

Too bad i found that you don't even care about me. What so ever~ I still miss you.... I am stupid! Why? Damn, i dunno. Are you really that busy? Can u just simply drop me a reply? Never mind, look like i expect too much from you. Life is unfair. i know. I just know. You are like a fridge. Feel warm when i stand behind you but feel cold when i try to open u up. Argh! Can i know what is in your mind?

I am hungry and thirsty. Craving for hugs and love. But i know i am not deserved for that. I am alone somehow. I love myself. I guess it is enough but no, I want more. Maybe just a little....

Lastly, sorry for my insincerity. You are just a piece of pest's pet shit! keep on repeating the same thing. I dunno anything! I am a electric eel sometimes. I will zap u definitely if u try to make me mad! Move away before I kick your butt!!!

Hope it will change, asap! It's tiring..... hmph!

MONEY!

Life would be really uneasy without money. Argh!

Keep outing with friends and my wallet is almost dried up jor. haiz.....

not even get my salary yet~ How leh? :'(

I thought using public transport is cheaper but i m wrong! Totally wrong~

Let me count, from Jinjang to Times Square :

Jinjang to Chowkit (by bus) - RM 2.00

Chowkit to Times Square (monorail) - RM 1.60

Journey back - RM3.60.

Total will be RM 7.20!

Lol, it can own a meal!

believe me, if i have the power one day in the future. i will replace money with something else!!!

Mum keep mumbling also~ haiz.....

"Bad boy, no need to study a? Always go hang gai.......%^(^$#$%#^#&@#!#" XD

HATE IT!!!

I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!!! I hate the final exam! Like shit! Totally bullshit!

I thought i m going to enjoy the days after the final test. At least i can study not under pressure anymore. But in fact, it is not! These few days are disastrous. Tsunami, earthquake, tornado, volcano, eruption, flood, BIG BANG!!!

There were a few people that really brought me to the hell these few days. People tend to be weak! Why? I just dunno....We just need to give ourselves another chance. But why don't you?

"Wow, you are doing really good! Aiya, me not geng as you la." Enough! i m sicked of these words. Don't tell me anymore, i don't wan to listen! You are just giving yourself an excuse to cover your weaknesses. However , your silliness is fully shown.

Waiting for death to come? For what? Life would be meaningless! No one can ever end up their lives just like that. Not doing good during the exam, so what! Failed 3 subjects? So what! We should overcome the obstacles but not to get tripped by it and get killed!

Weng Kiad left us today. I found it so hard to accept the truth. I wonder why. It is because of the exam again. Shitty marks that killed everyone! hate it. Hwee Teong wanna transfer too. Again because of the exam. Pui Kwan some more......Tell me once and i m gonna hurt for once enough! I dunno what to say.

Psychology? Dun ever dream about this anymore!!!